Not conflicted anymore :)

So conflicted...

It is probably just the pregnancy hormones, but I have been struggling lately with the idea of our family changing in just a few days. We are so excited to meet our little girl, but I LOVE my little family of four. My two boys are such a blessing. I worry that my relationship with them will change especially due to having to split my time 3 ways now. I worry that all their needs won't get met. As you can tell, I struggle with worry. :(

Abe keeps reassuring me that everything will be fine and that once I meet Maggie I will hardly remember what life was like before she came. Intellectually, I know he is right. However, I am not thinking totally rationally at the moment. :) Thankfully, we have a God who is concerned for us and will hear our prayers. I have been praying for a smooth transition for our whole family. It is so nice to know that He love my kids so much more than I ever could, and that He is sufficient to provide our every need!

BREECH!

Found out yesterday that our little girl is breech! The little stinker turned around in the last 1.5 weeks. Last weekend I had lots of contractions. The following two days I had terrible back pain. I think that she decided to flip around during that time. What a stinker! We are going to attempt to turn her around (external version) Friday, March 18th. The will do the procedure in the operating room, so that they can give me an epidural and be ready for a c-section in case she shows signs of distress during the version. If they successfully turn her around, they will induce my labor. If they aren't able to turn her or she doesn't tolerate the version well, she will be born via c-section.

We are shocked! This is not what we planned, but God is bigger than our plans. He is good all the time, and it is wonderful that we can trust that He is in control. Looks like the baby will be born on March 18th :)

38 Weeks

I getting ready to leave the house for my 38 week appointment. At my last appointment I wasn't quite ready for the baby to come, but this time around it would be nice to hear some news that the baby might be coming sooner than later. My body is ready to be done with pregnancy. My boys want their active mommmy back. My husband wants to meet his little girl, and has the perfect break at work. This would be a great time for her to come. Hopefully, she will cooperate :)