Tuesday, March 15, 2011

So conflicted...

It is probably just the pregnancy hormones, but I have been struggling lately with the idea of our family changing in just a few days. We are so excited to meet our little girl, but I LOVE my little family of four. My two boys are such a blessing. I worry that my relationship with them will change especially due to having to split my time 3 ways now. I worry that all their needs won't get met. As you can tell, I struggle with worry. :(

Abe keeps reassuring me that everything will be fine and that once I meet Maggie I will hardly remember what life was like before she came. Intellectually, I know he is right. However, I am not thinking totally rationally at the moment. :) Thankfully, we have a God who is concerned for us and will hear our prayers. I have been praying for a smooth transition for our whole family. It is so nice to know that He love my kids so much more than I ever could, and that He is sufficient to provide our every need!


Sarah Moulton said...

Jess God knew exactly how he wanted your family long before you even thought about it! Did you feel this way when you brought Parker home? Abe's right, pretty soon you won't remember life without your little baby and you won't remember how you could have felt complete with out her. I remember being worried about my kids feeling like I abandoned them a little when the baby came. Like they weren't as important as she was. TRUST ME, even if you feel that way for a couple weeks, Abe is spending extra time with them so they feel very loved! Plus in a few months it all balances out and think of all the benefits to your kids of getting a sister. Just give them lots of hugs and kisses they know you love them!!! You need to start now and give yourself a break because I remember feeling a little overwhelmed but everything will be just fine! God wants us to grow and trust him but it's not always easy. I know you love your kids like crazy and thats where this is coming from. Hang in there with those dumb hormones... I balled my eyes out a couple times due to those babies... sorry for the essay I am just really confident you will be just fine even if things are a little hard at times.

The Abe Green Family said...

I really appreciate the essay :) It helps coming from someone who has been there :)

You make great points! I am so happy Abe will be home to help us all transition. Also, it is true that God ordained that our family would grow and His ways are perfect.

Worry is such a huge problem in my life. It is something that I have to constantly work on. It is so amazing that I still think I know what would be better for me and my family after all His provisions for us. Sometimes I am so dense :)

Thanks again for the encouragement! Love you much!

Stef said...

I've been there, Jess. Right now my fears are that we're replacing Kara as our "baby", but you know what? its the way God has designed it. Our family is growing and God will add grace and strength and even love we didn't know we had. If you believe He's big enough, you can believe He's big enough to provide (in every way) for a larger family.

My first few months with 3 kids was hard. For sure. I remember thinking "if I can get through this I can do anything!" and I think it might be true ;-)
I will be praying for you in these new days... make memories. Take the days slowly, enjoy your babies. They don't stay little for very long!